The house, that is, is up for sale.
After a week of final work (painting) and a day of frantic cleaning, our house is cleaner and looks nicer, than it probably has... EVER.
I was a little unhappy this week with the probable sale price the realtor gave us. I thought or hoped it would be a little more and the reality has been hard to adjust to. The way it is now, we'll walk away with just enough for plane tickets to Chile and enough to ship what little we are shipping.
This means starting over from scratch, with almost nothing. We don't have fine furnishings anyway, but we are very fortunate to have everything we need. Selling it all for a few hundred bucks isn't going to help much on the other end. There are things that are just more complicated in Chile, like doing laundry. When I lived there by myself, it didn't matter, I'd take the subway with my big bag of dirty clothes to a laundromat (expensive). That doesn't sound very fun with a family of four.
Am I sweating the small stuff? Perhaps, but in some ways that is much easier than sweating the big stuff... I don't dare start with the big stuff. I have had this pit in my stomach and knot in my throat, hoping and wishing that this is the right decision. Well, I know it is the right decision in many ways: it is the decision that will give my kids a sense of family, and many more people to love; it is the decision that will balance the nearly 10 years my husband has spent far from friends and family; it is the decision that will quench that wanderlust I have always had.
The timing is perfect in so many ways (despite my sister's belief that the massive earthquake in Chile in February was a sign that I should't move ;-)
I guess the bright side is that I know we'll be taken care of; my husband's family is so generous and supportive. My father-in-law is more than thrilled that we'll be staying him for a bit, even though I am less than thrilled about not having my own space.
So, it is terrifying in some ways and exciting in others. This is almost the last step... this and finishing consulate paperwork and shipping boxes. I almost can't believe it is getting so close.